As another night passes by
I feel a little pain
looking up at the stars
I feel the tears fall like rain
I wish I could look into your eyes
show how much I cared
but my mind told me no
it was something I must not dare
This empty feeling in my heart grows a little bigger
as I wonder what you must be doing right now
and I always wished I could have said I loved you
but I just didn’t know how
So I lay my head down once again to try and sleep
my heart longing for you to comfort it
but my mind knowing it’s not to be..
It could never be.
I wish I could have showed you my soul
all my heart, and all of my love
but I was too insecure to try
now I lay here once again
and to myself, my feelings I try to hide
and I say out loud to no-one
my voice crackles with tears
softly in the silent night
as I see a vision of you in my mind
and I tell you, finally!
but really to no-one...
I love you.
4 comments:
Oh my heart . . . !
This gives me a lump in my throat knowing the feelings of loving and not receiving in return !
i wanted this love from my family that i never got and then i pushed and pushed to be loved by a man who couldn't express his love . . .
Walking away 25 yrs later, i found another . . . did the same to myself again and now i hurt because i don't know if i can fix this relationship either. . .
i am so afraid of being rejected that i keep back the love i deserve . . .
can i ever heal this wound ?
this is my prayer, my plead with God to show me the way to receive love and to express it without reserve . . .
same heart
we share the same heart
If you love and trust someone, why would you NOT want to tell them how you feel. Life is very short. People can have a car accident and suddenly die. And they would die not ever knowing how much you loved them. You are already in pain from not expressing your love. Maybe if you said how you felt, it would not only be a relief, but well reciprocated. You will NEVER know until you share your feelings. Until then, you will feel the emptiness that resides inside which flows the sadness :~( *Tight Hug *
~Nina Fox
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