Calmly dreaming

Calmly dreaming

happily pursuing the innocent pleasures

of a fantasy escapeland in the Mists of Nod

Brutally awakened

by the simultaneous explosion

of blood and sweat and massive pain

Awakened yet again by the violations of

the man who said he'd take care of me and

oh boy

was he taking care of me...

Flopping my body mindlessly on the

End of his manipulative controls, forever

searing this memory

into the very cells of my body.

And sometimes when I

am sleeping at

night

I

have

these flashbacks

and I just can't seem to

tell whether or not I am dreaming.