Why.........

Don't look
too close at me
You might not like
what you see.

I don't want you
to see inside
To see the tears
that I hide.

and I'm feeling so cold
... been crying all night long
and everyone tells me I am fine
and I'm assuring myself they are wrong.

With my head in my hands
can't stop crying.
I wonder if there's a reason
for my pain and lying.

I want leave the world
leave it all behind.
Know I'll get there,
just take some pills with wine.

and I don't wanna talk to nobody...
and I don't want to smile.
Just want to curl up in my bed;
like a frightend, saddend child.
  
look at me again
like a mirror that often lies
the corners of my mouth quivering
with a vague distance in my eyes...
...wishing I could die.

1989