I Embraced Death

When the salty air
and the moist beach breeze
and the moonlight
all dripped through
the cracked window
and the hushing of the fan
whispered to me
that everything really was
just fine...
told me that
there was no other place
I wanted to be.

Dark dreams
still upon me,
I felt a calm
so thorough
and a peace
so profound

Outside the night air
had a chill, but
It's touched
warmed me
I stepped into
The silvery sea
I embraced
Death.

1981

A Red Ocean

     I lie deep in the shadows
     My body, limp and cold
     As hatred and fear devour my mind
     My soul slides into oblivion
     I hear his voice ringing in my head
     He is the demon in my dreams
     The poison in my blood
     The terror in my screams
     The hurt towards him burns me
     Scouring the walls of my chest
     Engulfing my heart in flames
     The pain too strong to fight
     Attacks me like sharp knives
     All over my body
     Stabbing
     Slashing
     Cutting deeper and deeper
     Sinking into my flesh
     A red ocean fills my head
     My vision scarlet
     I close my eyes
     Forever.