He tells it as it is. His skill as a writer is obvious, his mastery of words and the way he portrays his own pain cuts the reader to the core. His words may be too raw for some people, but as I've said of myself. If you don't like what you read then don't follow.
I understand his feelings of self loathing. I was so close to becoming addicted to alcohol and drugs many years ago. I have done much in my earler life that I am ashamed of, things I regret but cannot change. Life goes on. I have a lesson of my own to share here...
Your past does not define who you are today. Let the choices you make today define who you will be.
Hugh is a different kind of survivor to me. He is a survivor nonetheless.
I am blessed with his friendship, I am honoured to introduce you to him.
My name is Hugh McGuire, I have been using the name Dorian Gray for a few years now.
I picked Dorian because he searches for any pleasure or desire despite being good or evil. Then searches for a redemption in his life of regret. Theses are in many ways very similar to my life.I have caused many problems for myself in my life. I have seen darkened holes but have crawled back to the light.
I write to vent, I write to feel, I write to be,
again.
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I feel darkness with everlasting pain. My pain and my problems are self induced.
I am Dorian Gray
These are my feelings.
http://lessonsinbrokeness.wordpress.com
My Chiseled Corner
In a dim lit corner of hell,I sit
Alone in coldness, I sit
With glass filled whiskey, I sit
Concerned with fate, I sit
Forever alone, I sit
Forever dammed, I sit
In hopes for consciousness, I think
In dreams of carnal pleasures, I think
Pleasures once had, I think
Violated by truth, I think
Without redemption, I think
With lost hope, I think
In eternal suffering, I rest
In eternal suffering, I lay
In eternal suffering, I die
In eternal pain, my soul dies.
I live my own Hell.
Songs are poems, and yours, a wonderful poem, ever think it might work - as a song?
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Compelling and beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteI love your quote "I write to vent, I write to feel, I write to be." I totally agree and live that. Powerful poem...a revelation of self in honesty.
ReplyDeleteThis is amazing.
ReplyDeleteJan, get a hold of me... it's been years. Hope all is well. Cheers.
ReplyDeleteThis is amazing.
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