Losing Control

My head is spinning,
My heart is hurting,
My eyes are dead in a stare,
My body is cold,
My heart is turning to stone,
My feet give out underneath me,
My hands shake,
My mouth is dry,
My teeth grind,
And my fists clench,
I grow angry,
And I feel like I am losing control,
This feeling will soon pass,
But for a short time it will last,
Why I feel this I will never know,
I wish I was happy with life,
But I am not,
I only feel one thing,
Like I am losing control.....