wanting to change everything,
change anything around me,
anything that isn't you,
wanting to change anything
that does not welcome you,
I want to change something,
to repaint the picture,
to redesign the day,
to reinvent the situation,
so that I would be certain
you would be a part of it,
having become in love with you,
I awaken in the morning
to desparately thinking
these wild thoughts
of how to change something,
nearly anything around me
anything that I could change,
not knowing what to change,
desparately thinking how,
to repaint the picture,
to redesign the day,
to reinvent the situation,
so you would be certain
to be a part of it,
beyond these wild thoughts
of changing almost anything
as nearly anything will do
if it is what gets us there,
I awaken in the morning
into wild thoughts,
knowing there is nothing
that I could really change
not to end up wanting
to change it again,
to repaint the picture,
to redesign the day,
to reinvent the situation,
until we would be together
somewhere, somehow,
in one way or another,
knowing I want to
change everything around me,
change nearly anything,
so we can happen,
no matter how
the picture is painted,
no matter how
the day is designed,
no matter what
the situation,
I awaken in the morning
wild thoughts not knowing
what to change,
wanting to change everything,
change nearly anything,
that is around me,
so I can see you again,
knowing for certain
I am in love with you,
if only I could know
what to change,
how to change it,
to repaint the picture,
to redesign the day,
to reinvent the situation,
so that we are there.
3 comments:
I'm sure you can change it, one step at a time.
Just believe it and you'll make it happen!
I Cannot believe one person feels like me ...I scare me ... I just think of forever sleep and beg it to come ...why are my friends and parents gone and me. Here? Why would someone or god or whoever want me to be in so much pain ....everynightfor years I wish to stay asleep it never happens I don't want to be fifty I have one year to remedy this ...I wish I could just not be ....there is no hope and this pain is so intense sleeping forever is beauty to my ears ... I don't want to have people call me pretty makes pressure that's all people want looks and they don't care .... I have a plan and after this years b day no longer will I be here ...being alone every day is excruciating and no one cares ...no one helps .... I just want to be held and never let go
You seem to continue to channel my soul in your poetry! Thank you for your beautiful words from your heart. I feel ya - you have given expression to my experience. Altho, I've cried (daily for months) it's a bit affirming in my yearning.
Peace & Gratitude
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